Life

Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them. 
Psalm 139:16
This is an interesting verse to me. Occasionally we face something new in life and we are scared. I was today. I was driving along and suddenly I felt different, I thought I might possibly faint so I pulled into a parking lot. There I was looking at two different cars at a gas station and a man walking towards one of the cars. I started seeing double. I saw one car above the other and the man above another man. Everything was double, it was scary. Barbara was with me and she drove me to the doctor. They took blood samples and did a test where I stand with my arms forward and my eyes closed. I closed my eyes and the doctor said as many times as he has given that test, people will sometimes wobble but he has never had to reach out to keep someone from falling until me. I do not know what is wrong. I do know my life is in the hands of the one who knows. They did an MRI, I do not know if they found anything, as of this writing. They put me on the small machine and I was asked if I am claustrophobic, I said I don't think so. As soon as they got me into the machine I asked to be taken back out. I am claustrophobic. I had to wait for the bigger machine. Then when they had me positioned on the machine, I kept my eyes closed. I survived, but I advise anyone close your eyes and I think it helps.  They think something may be touching the optic part of the brain to cause the double images. It is scary when you come to a point in life and you do not know what is ahead. God had every one of my days written in his book when there was none of them. I do not know what is ahead, but I know in whom I have believed. I have tried to correct things in my life as I have lived and became aware of them. We do not have to follow the dysfunctions of life we were born to, we can change.  Honestly I am scared, I do not know what cause the double vision, but it scared me. As I was waiting in the doctors office, I tried to text someone and I couldn't see all the letters on the screen. It scared me. The MRI machine scared me especially the first one, the second one the larger one not so much. I don't know what lies ahead, but God knows. Perhaps there is nothing wrong, but I am scared.  Life is here on earth is temporary anyway and I put my life in God's hands many years ago. He already knows the number of my days.  I am forgiven, I have had that talk with God long ago. Perhaps this is nothing more than a scare. God bless, LVZ.