upper level disturbance

We were joking about upper level disturbance as a weather system went thru the area. I think I have met people who had an upper level disturbance. We have conflicts within ourselves, sometimes we try to do the right thing and still mess up. Many times I worry about the things I write being offensive. I explain, its my blog, my thoughts, it don't necessarily mean I am right. I've been wrong many times in my life. I guess I will just credit it to an upper level disturbance. My brain wasn't thinking right. I do have an attitude of wanting to be right before God. I don't have to answer to anyone for my life but to God. If I please him, I'm OK, upper level disturbance or otherwise. When I am depressed, I can think of  that as an upper level disturbance. One thing I do know God understands me. Even if I misspeak, he knows my heart, while that is comforting, it can also be disturbing because he also understand us when our motives are not pure. I believe God wants to calm the storms in our life just like he calmed the Sea. When I look back in my life, and see the hardships he brought me through, he can bring me through other storms also. The storms of life, the upper level disturbance are just as easy for the Master of the Universe as calming the sea. I love being in the hands of God, he is trust worthy. I still see things in my life that make me wonder, if I am as committed to God as I would like to be. I think I want him to be first in my life, but at times I feel I still have some distance to travel to get there. I am still reading the book Growing up Holy and Wholly. While I like the book, I also don't like it. It makes me realize that not only did I grow up in a dysfunctional home, but I also had some issues in my own adulthood.  But I know that God loves me just as I am.  I am better than I deserve, I am forgiven and my sins are forgotten. That is wonderful when you really stop and think about it.  O, that I could live gracefully as well as receive the grace God gives to me. How we live is where the rubber meets the road more than what we say and think. May I live grace, practicing it in my life.  God bless, LVZ.