Thru the Fire

Isaiah 43:2 "When thou passest through the waters, I will be with thee; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow thee; when thou walkest through the fire, thou shalt not be burned; neither shall the flame kindle upon thee." Sometimes we feel like we are going through the fire or through the flood.
All of us go thru difficult times. Sometimes we look at the next person and think how did they go through that. We each face difficulties in life and to us they are the worst places we have been through. What may be your hardship may not look that hard to the next person. They have their own hardship to deal with. When you are in the middle of your difficulty, you may feel like your going through the fire. We sometimes say that, "I'm going through the fire." God tells us he be with us and we will make it through. We will not get burned up, maybe singed a little. There was a period of time in my life that was very difficult. I remember back and during that time of difficulty and shortly after going through it, I remember talking about my situation and my hands would litterly be shaking. I went to medical at work in January of 1993 because I knew something was wrong with me. I was the common denominator on several incidents that happened that morning after I got up to go to work. I was in a difficult marriage. My spouse had been unfaithful and I knew it and it was eating on me. Some time earlier she had set the house on fire and just some different trying experiences. The Doctor asked me about what is going on in your life and I told her about these things. At the end of the hour I spent in her office, she told me you have nothing left to give to anybody. She sent me home on medical leave for a month. She said, "Whats going on at home, you need to fix it, no one else can."  I knew then, it was over. I wanted to stay until the kids were out of the house, but that wasn't going to happen. I did leave and slept in the canopy of my truck in the parking lot at work.They had an exercise facility at work where I could get a shower. I'd shower put on clean close and go to work,  living in my truck and the parking lot until security at work caught me. "You cannot do this, you need to find someplace to live," said the security officer.  I was paying the house payment, the groceries, the light bill, the telephone bill at the house even though I wasn't living there and felt I didn't have enough money to rent a place for me. I found a room to rent and stayed for about a month. Didn't like that, and found a studio apartment with a shared bath. I stayed there for a couple of months and one day the landlord says you really don't seem to be the right kind of person for a place like this. He told me he had a small one bedroom apartment that was a little more per month but If I wanted it, I could rent that. I moved.  About that time my wife wanted to sell the house and I jumped at the chance and it sold in three days time after we signed with the Realestate agent.  It felt like I was going thru the fire at that time, but I look back and see the hand of God helping me thru this time.  I am so grateful that I had a God who was still watching out for me as I was going thru one of the worst times of my life. It may have felt like I was going thru the fire, or that I was barely keeping my head above water, but it was like God said in Isaiah, I will be with you and he was. God bless, LVZ.