Writing

I want to write, I just do. I would like for my words to be meaningful, but some days I just don't have inspiration. This morning in my Bible reading in Isaiah chapter 20, I read about Isaiah running around without clothes or sandals for three years.  It has to do with a Prophecy against Egypt and Cush. What am I going to do with that? I have been thinking a lot about happiness lately. I read a book, "Happiness Is A Serious Problem", and I agree. I have a happy life and I am thankful for that. I made a lot of mistakes, but to be happy, I need to let it go and not dwell on it. I was in a doctors office yesterday and a woman was holding a young boy, maybe not even a year old. He made me smile. he looked at me and I wondered what he was thinking.  Children make us happy. Not every waking moment of course. When they are young and they get sick and puck all over you, it is not a good moment. But I don't remember that happening. I do remember my son laying on my chest as I laid on the couch and we would both fall asleep. A happy memory. My daughter, when I first held her, her head in the palm of my hand and her feet just barely touching my arm. I used to have a picture of my son trying to help me wash a 66 VW, the picture is gone but I still have the memory. My daughter made up a song, it's raining, it's pouring, my daddy is boring. Happy feelings from these memories.  What else makes me happy? Taking pictures, a lot of junk pictures, but every once in a while I have a picture I treasure.  I have a deer hiding in the grass that I took on a roadside in Wyoming, I love that picture. I have a picture of my model 55 chevy and my military jeep being towed and it looks real. I fool people with that picture.  A man with a beautiful  58 ford convertible was drinking coffee with us and I showed my picture of my 55 chevy.  Do you still have this, he asks? I say yes it's about this big, I show with my hands. I think I was in Arizona when I took that picture.
I enjoy taking pictures and when I get something like the above I get satisfaction out of that. I am not a great photographer but I just enjoy taking pictures.  Being married makes me happy, now that I am in a good marriage. It took a lot of bad times to get here. But life when I was divorced or separated and single did not please me, I was so lonely.  I get a lot of satisfaction from belonging to a church. Don't put all your eggs on one basket, but don't leave church out. It will greatly improve your life.  I am constantly learning things. I enjoy writing. I was going through a lot of old posts and my spelling is bad. I can't tell you how many times I wrote behavior, behaviour. It looks right but this new program highlights it every time. I think it is worth the money because even with spell check I misspell so many words. Its called grammerly.com.  I enjoy mowing a lawn. It is simple but I enjoy it.  A lot of things that make you happy have pain associated with it at times. Life is not pain-free.  The last road trip I had 4 flat tires in 11 days and I was always worried about getting the tire fixed before the next flat. I now carry two spares.  Children were not pain-free, but I am thankful for them.  I had Eli over a few weeks ago and I had him driving my old lawn tractor and he had a blast. I enjoyed watching him have fun. Children and grandchildren are not pain-free, but they leave you with many pleasant memories. I remember the time I was pounding in horseshoe stakes and Eli wanted to help, I gave him the hammer and looked away for just a moment. At that moment he smashed his little fingers. "You could have told me no", he says. Blaming me for his pain. I still chuckle at that. You can be happy and not be pain-free.   God bless, LVZ.
In the 55 chevy picture above, what looks like trees are little shrubs that are hand high. I set my cars upon a rock on the edge of a dirt road with those small shrubs in the background and most people looking at it think its a real car and jeep.