Re-evaluate

I have over 1500 posts.  I am trying to go back through these and delete ones that are negative. I want to have a positive influence. My first blog was in 2012. For the last three years, I have been writing over 300 posts a year. I have tried to stay away from politics but for me, it is really hard to do. Trials are good. Many times when I have noticed and corrected some attitude in myself it has been because of a trial I went through. I have been dealing with some internal issues and I think that is what has caused me to want to re-evaluate the posts I have written. As I do this, I find a lot of misspelled words in my posts from 2012. English was never a favorite class in public school and it shows.  I think I am doing better. I like doing this but I want my posts to be meaningful not just to me but to anyone that reads them. My readership is very small, but if I have helped just one person it is worth it. It has certainly helped me to see what is in my heart. I often think of the time leading up to my recommitment to God in 1984. I felt like God was saying to me if you think it is so easy being a Christian, why don't you show others how it is done. I believe this exercise, writing this blog is like trying to do just that.  You pray to God, read his word, (relationship) and try to apply what you learn to your life. By writing this blog I am meditating/thinking about what I am reading.  If I can explain it, I understand it. If I cannot explain it if it is not open to me at this time I just move on.  But I think I am going to publish less. I will still go through the exercise but instead of trying to publish something every day, just publish when I feel I have written an "A" post. I am deleting a lot of posts as I reread them. This process is like looking in a mirror. Looking at my mind and my character. If I were to write a book someday I'd title it "Carved by The Master".  I often think of an oldtimer twiddling on a block of wood. God is taking an ordinary piece of wood or humanity and making something useful or beautiful to look at. If he can take the anger and the negativity out of this life, perhaps I should say sin, a lot has been accomplished. I am not trying to say everything I will publish will be an "A", but we aim high and hope at least for a "C". I feel I will be deleting a lot of posts. Of my 1500 plus posts, I have had only two that had over 100 readers.  Another 3 where between 50 and 100 readers. I guess looking at the numbers is part of the evaluation.  Numbers are not the most important thing, but we all have an influence on others. If I have done something that pleases God, I am successful. I think I read somewhere that the average person has an influence on about 15 people.  An alcoholic can have a negative influence on many more. I do want to have a positive influence. I want to be salt to this society, a light on a hill. God bless, LVZ.