Helplessness

I figured sooner or later I would see God working or showing me something in my life. I feel somewhat vulnerable and helpless at times. When you are so use to doing so much for yourself sooner or later a need would show up. It is so easy to forget I need that walker. I walked out into the dogtrot and realized after a few minutes, I didn't have my walker.  I blurted out, I don't know where my walker is and here I am an arms length or more from anything to hold on too.I didn't get the response I thought I'd get. I didn't specifically ask for help, I just made a statement. It was so easy to develop an attitude and feel I was in my rights. As I thought about it, it may have been obvious to me, Hey I need my walker. But isn't it just as easy for the next person to forget  they are my care giver for just a moment. I saw how easy it would be to get some wrong words started. And many times it is just that easy to get a wrong attitude or a negative conversation started. I thought about it and that is not the personality trait I want to develop in my temporary circumstance. It was a learned trait to expect others to read my mind, and I see it creep up every so often. This change is not only a big change for me but for my spouse also. It is so easy to say a wrong word or develop a wrong attitude and I pray God will help me to keep a sweet spirit about me.  God bless, LVZ.