So Political

I hate that I am so political. I find I piss off family and friends. But I want to stand up for God.

10Moses said to the Lord, “Pardon your servant, Lord. I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue.”

11The Lord said to him, “Who gave human beings their mouths? Who makes them deaf or mute? Who gives them sight or makes them blind? Is it not I, the Lord? 12Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say.”

13But Moses said, “Pardon your servant, Lord. Please send someone else.” Exodus 4:10-13.                                                                                                                         I thought of this verse where Moses is telling God I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to me. I feel the same way, and sometimes I want to say to God Please send someone else. I am not good at the things I do that I feel God has asked me to do. I honestly do not feel I am very good at blogging and writing these things. I do videos and I do not feel very good at it. But God says to Moses, who gives human beings their mouths?  It struck me, God gave me the ability to whatever measure he wanted. Who makes them deaf or mute, or who gives them sight or makes them blind?  NOW GO? The capitalization is mine. I imagine God is getting frustrated with Moses and raises his voice as I do when frustrated. God who knew every one of my days before I was born, if he asked me to do these things, he already knew my ability before he asked. So I continue to do these things, writing a blog and recently started doing videos and I don't even know who reads them or in the case of videos I sometimes know when someone encourages me. I recently blogged about the parable of the talents and it says God gave them according to their ability.  God already knew my ability if this is indeed God. When I first started First Step Prayer, I thought it might just be a grandiose Leon idea. I wasn't sure about it. But as the months have gone by and I see how troubled our land is, I believe God put these things on my heart. I feel I piss a lot of people off here in Mississippi and even back on the west coast. But I feel I am exactly where God wants me to be. In 2000 long before I was ready to retire, I thought about moving south.  But when  I was looking on the internet I was checking out Mississippi. I had never been here to Mississippi before. In 2001 I took a long road trip to Mississippi. Texas is south, Alabama is south as are Georgia and Florida.  But my focus seemed to be on Mississippi. I did have a friend from 1998 that was from Natchez, but I also had a long time friend from Alabama. God knows every one of our days. I believe God was preparing me for where I am right now. I don't understand a lot of this, but I believe I am where I am supposed to be. I have still made mistakes, but moving here is not one of them. We are in troubled times. It is like a civil war on social media and I often feel I am in the middle of it. I am not eloquent, I often listen and read back what I speak and write and I see so many mistakes. But God gave me what ability I do have. He allowed me to speak and didn't make me deaf or mute. Here I am, I feel like Moses but I don't want to bury what God gave me in the earth and dig it up when he returns. He knew before he sent Moses, what talent and abilities Moses had. Perhaps it was Moses's heart that God saw. Moses that did not like seeing his fellow Israelites mistreated. The Moses that helped his future wife water their stock. The Moses that pleaded with God to spare Israel when God became angry with them in the Wilderness. God looks on our hearts, just like he did with King David. God gave us Trump, a fighter. God knew ahead of time what Trump would face. God knows what I will face, and I believe he is telling me to continue to pray for our nation even if it is by myself.  He gave me a mouth and what little writing ability I have. I can argue with God, I am not good enough, but in the end, perhaps God is saying I already knew your abilities before I asked you to do anything.  So this is the real me, ability, or lack of it trying to do what God has laid on my heart. If I am pleasing to God that is what really matters. God bless, LVZ.