Decision

Life is one decision after another.  Think about it. Some decisions have lifetime consequences.  I made a decision to get married when I was twenty years old. I had dated Jenie for a time after I first met her in the summer I was 18.  Her parents moved to Grand Ronde Ore, and we lost contact with each other.  In the summer I was 20, we reconnected.  I made a trip to Grand Ronde to see her. When I got there she was visibly pregnant. She told me what happened. I felt sorry for her, and the child she was going to have. I made a decision  to marry her so that child would have a father. It is a decision that has affected the rest of my life.  In 1984 I made another decision that affected the rest of my life. After walking away from God some years earlier, telling myself, Christians are nothing but hypocrites. God dealt with me over a period of time and in January 1984,  I made the decision to try and live a Christian life again. God I will not quit, I said. That decision I consider to be the most important decision of my entire life time. It changed me and still is affecting me today. Over the course of the years I made more decisions. I made a decision to divorce in 1993. I made a decision to marry a second time in 1994. I made a decision to divorce again in 1999. I made a decision to try marriage a third time in 2000 and immediately regretted that decision and it took me a year to get divorced in 2001. In 2002 I made a decision to marry again, and divorce again in 2004. A series of decision that have affected my life. I made a decision to take CATIA classes in the late 1980'a, I don't remember exactly the year. It affected the course of my employment. I made a decision to go to the Engineering side after taking many CATIA classes.  Some decisions were good and had positive consequences, some were bad and had negative consequences. All choices I made affected the rest of my life. Life is one decision after another. I made a decision to marry again in 2007 and made a decision to move to Mississippi in 2012. I made a decision to seek an accountability partner in 2013. It has been a stabilizing decision in my life.  Some decisions were wise, some were not. All affected my life. Some good, some bad. I have no one to blame. I take responsibility for the good and the bad decisions I have made.  The decision I made in 1984 to try again to live a Christian life was the most important decision of my life. That relationship with God has continued through the good and the bad decisions I made since then. God has stood by me even when I didn't listen and made bad choices. That decision has eternal consequences. That is why that is the most important decision of my life. We are one decision away from good or bad consequences. I made some bad financial decisions since moving to Mississippi, they have affected me negatively. All through life I have made decisions about so many things.  MY decision to marry in 2007 turned out to be good. I couldn't see down the road very far, with my history I wasn't sure but I went ahead anyway. I have been blessed. I am learning to seek God about even small decisions in my life.  I am asking more and more for direction. So many of my decisions were impulsive and not given a lot of thought.  Seeking God's help in making decisions is one of the best things I have done. When I started looking for a church in 2012, after I moved here, I prayed and prayed, God help me. After becoming discouraged I finally visited Hope Church after several months of seeking God 's help.  That first morning after months of searching, I knew in my heart God had answered my prayer. God has confirmed that decision again and again over the next few years.  I wish I had prayed and sought God's direction for every decision I made. I ask God to guide me every day. I don't ask God if I am getting fast food if I should go to Wendy's or MacDonald's.  I don't ask if I should fill my gas tank at Shell or Phillips 66. But I have learned to seek God in so many decisions. Life is full of decisions that affect the rest of our lives. We are one decision away from good or bad consequences. The drug addict has probably regretted the first decision to use drugs, the recovering addict is probably thankful for the decisions that helped them walk away from drug addiction. Decisions made every day of our life can have life altering consequences.  Seek God's guidance for life's decisions, some have eternal consequences. God has a view of the past, present and future that we do not have.  God bless, LVZ.