Understand?

Do I understand everything God has done or every where God has led me? I don't, but I have learned to trust God. Even during the 30 plus years I have walked with God I have messed up. I had areas if my life I did not fully trust him. How many of us would trust a parent to find us a spouse as they did in days of old? As I thought on this, that is what I was like when trusting God for a marriage partner, I really didn't trust God. I felt I could find my own partner, and I had some disastrous  results. It speaks of me when you look at a life that has been divorced 4 times. It shows someone who did not trust God and seek God and his wisdom but went on my own. I thank God for the spouse I have today. As I started to learn to trust God, I prayed for God to block the wrong ones. And he did. Just because someone is a Christian does not mean they are right for you.  God understands us better than we do our own selves. These words I write are not meant to be a reflection on the other partners that I left behind. But an inward look into me. So it is with finances, I sometimes see that I don't fully trust God in the financial area of my life and I see wrong decisions that I have made looking back. Hind sight is 20/20. We are proud of ourselves when we faithfully give 10%, our tithe as we call it. God's portion. In reality, it is all God's, 100% God's. He does ask that we honor him with that 10%. But the talents, money or skills, even our time, do we understand that it is God's? God owns the cattle on a thousand hills. For every beast of the forest is mine, the cattle on a thousand hills. Psalm 50:10 This earth rotates as God designed. We have air / oxygen to breathe because God gives us breath. We do not even know the number of our days but God does.Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them. Psalm 139:16 I do not understand many things. If God can keep the earth rotating around the sun, can he not guide my life?  Forgiveness works as does love. God modeled them for us to follow. I do not understand God in his fullest but I am glad I know what I already know. God is faithful. God bless, LVZ.