My Blog

I enjoy writing. I would like for what I write to at least make people think. Every one of us has come from different circumstances. We have had different influences in our lives. We have had different experiences in our lives. I can only write about mine. What is in my heart comes out of my mouth. There have been times when I have taken what people have said personally. What they said wasn't directed at me, but sometimes the shoe fits. Perhaps that is what happened when I wrote the last black / white blog.  Its my blog, not many people read it. Thats OK, its my blog and I can write what is on my heart that day. I would like to be a blessing. If what I write offends someone, pray for me. I still want to write about my experiences, I don't post them on face book because I don't know who all will see it or read it. I really don't know who all reads by blog either, but they are entering my space when they read my blog. I may not see every thing as anyone else, that's why it is my blog. I think some black people took offense to some of the things I wrote. They didn't comment as they could have. But in sort of a back door way they did. They commented to someone who knew my wife, knowing that person would say something to my wife. My Wife doesn't read my blog. She gets blind sided by these comments. People say I intimidate them. I don't know who. I am usually a quiet person. I don't like to talk to two or more people. I only feel comfortable one on one. Any group of two or more and my discomfort level increases. Perhaps that is why I like to blog. I can say what I feel. I can remember two times in my life that I actually remember trying to intimidate people. Once, someone called Barbara's phone the first time we were in Mississippi after we were married. I answered the phone and a man was threatening to harm Haji over some money he felt Haji owed. him. I told Barbara about it and when Haji came home I listen in the back ground as they were talking. I found out the Guys name. THen on the internet I found his address. I had a GPS in the car and when Barbara sent me to the store, I looked for his guy. I found him and knocked on his door. Your the guy that threatened Haji, I just wanted you to know that I know where you live. I was trying to intimidate that man. He called the Sheriff and shortly after I returned home the Lee County Sheriff Deputy that saw me at that address  and knew who I was. The Deputy showed up at our doorstep.  I did not display or carry a weapon with me, I went unarmed. Another time I saw two teenage boys fighting and one ended on the ground and the other guy kept kicking him. I stopped and yelled at him to stop. He told me it was none of my business. I got out of the car and said "how about if I make it my business." they stopped and walked away together so perhaps it was not as serious as it looked to me. My quietness sometimes makes people uneasy. I have tried to talk more and be more open but I am still pretty much a quiet person. Black people don't feel comfortable coming and talking to me. I've had several people want to ask about renting the house that is empty, but they don't talk to me, they ask for Barbara and ask her. I feel I handled the incident with the young black man that pulled a gun on me correctly. I backed away and called the police. I found out later he had pulled a gun on several other older black men prior to the incident with me and they did nothing. I signed an arrest warrant or what ever they call it and he probably had to pay $500 to bond out. That is what I found out is normal on the internet. I do not know anything specific after I signed the paper.  I also found out that had those men done the same as me it would have been a felony charge because they were both older than 65. I feel I did the right thing because I doubt he will pull a gun on anyone just because he is not getting his way. That was a very immature way for a 30 + man to act over a few words that he disagreed with.  Maybe I shouldn't have spoken,but I did. It was my wife's property and his they were talking about and I really had no say in it, but when he was asking to put a dog fence on her side and then as we were walking  away, asked her if she told me about squatters rights. With out thinking I just popped off, "I think you just talked yourself out of a dog fence."   That is all I said but he went to get a gun to shoot me.  If I am  a racist, I don't see it. I have opinions about blacks having spent some 15 years attending several Black Churches. Those are my experiences and my thoughts. after all this is my blog.  Black people expected that would not be the end of it, that I being a white person would do something to this young black man. I guess they don't know me very well. I was very patient with several ex-wives and one of the fathers even said to his daughter, if he was a black man he would have killed you by now. I don't try to be intimidating most of the time, I just am mostly quiet, but I do stick up for myself when the need arises. If black people are reading this and you have an issue with me, talk to me directly. Don't go through others through a back door approach. I am not that unapproachable. I haven't killed any ex-wives that treated me badly, nor have I done anything more towards this young black man mentioned above, And I do not intend to do anything more. I feel he learned from that experience and it won't be a problem in the future. I really don't think I am that racist that a black person cannot talk to me directly.  I am not always right but I think what I think just like everyone else, right or wrong  .God bless, LVZ.