Grace again

I can't seem to get over this thought about grace. We grow up in church and we hear it all our lives.
With my legalistic background I wonder how well I understand this grace. We want rules to follow. It seems over time we make rules for the previous rules. We start with the ten commandments and over the centuries it turned into probably hundreds of rules to clarify the first ten. I think that is why you can find so many rules. In the church I grew up in it was these necessary things, I believe there were twenty eight of these necessary things. We didn't like to call them rules. Some churches had bylaws, I think that is what they called them. Don't most of the laws we make in our country somehow fit one of the ten commandments?  Jesus would sum it up in: love the Lord your God with all your heart, as the greatest commandment and the second was like unto it, Love your neighbor as yourself. Jesus would simplify things again. That's Grace, simple unconditional love. No strings attached. We worry about cheap grace and many will talk about cheapening grace when we sin again and again. I tend to think that way too, but doesn't that start to put conditions on grace again? This is almost hard to fathom, unconditional love. No conditions, if you say you cannot commit the same sin more than once, don't you put a condition on God's Love? We live in an imperfect world, we were raised by imperfect parents, and then we had children and we see all our mistakes as well. Haven't I committed the same sin more than once, almost any thing I want to look at in my life? Then God throws our sins into the sea of forgetfulness and remembers it no more. I wonder if the true meaning of grace has made it from my head to my heart.  Do I actually live Grace, unconditional Love. I remember struggling as a young Christian. I thought I can't live this, I keep messing up. Its for others because I see what I do wrong. Maybe all we really have to do is love God and just keep trying? He says to come just as we are, without one plea. Grace - unconditional love. Just as we are. I keep thinking about Grace and wonder do I really understand it as I should? I saw how hard I wanted to be on myself when I had that accident. That wasn't an example of Grace. Some times it seems inconceivable to think Ted Bundy could be in heaven some day. Unconditional love could put him there.  Or how about one of these other murderers, like the Green River Killer. Wouldn't unconditional love apply to someone like that if they repented and asked to be forgiven? Then why not me? God bless, LVZ.